Hello, dear beloveds. Here with you, at HPR: Antoine.

The message of this episode is the following: life comes in waves. ~~ Circumstances are volatile. For the majority of them, we have no control of what happens. Things happen, in climate events, in health (ours or another one’s), financially, emotionally. Many depend on choices that others make, or outside events that we, as humans, cannot trace cause-and-effect route — hamla ! [interjection], we can’t even tell the weather precisely yet.

Our emotions are subject to the same phenomenon. As far as they are tied to that events, our feelings of sadness, of relief, will come and go, also, as ~~ waves! Unpredictable, impetuous, imprecise. It ruins the health. Do you listen to your heartbeat? It can be 80 or 110 bpm from one second to another by the choices of your thinking, without you moving a muscle. A basketball player can be a better player only training in his mind, in imagination, in comparison to one that does not practice al all. Your mind, and by it we mean now the choices of your thinking, have influence in your muscular abilities and in your body chemicals. These regulate basically the entirety of your sensations, and contribute to your health or lack of it.

So, when one believes, he have a stable point in which to be firm. Even though the circumstances are waves, he is not floating on them. He’s anchored. That’s why, if firm (true) in this faith, he’s more stable and happier than an ordinary person, one that has no hope at all, but lives by what the world has to offer today.

In summary, the instability is not beneficial. And we are taken to this thinking, for the pursuit of something we believe is worth it, and may be not. Then, when someone presents something we “need”, that may not be the case. We can think. Then, we choose: what we live for? How I choose to feel, and behave, because or in spite of what happens around and around? and around. No matter the point of the universe one person has reached, physically or perceptually, that does not define him for eternity. Because it is not in that past, it is happening right now, has not ended, yeah?

Now, a point of experience of me. I have days of very low mood and uncertainty. The feeling of serving for absolutely nothing. (Even in good days, that may feel true, but does not define me as when I go to the ground on this thinking.) I have been said things like this, from people I value, or valued then, more than family of blood. These are days I eat not healthily, I don’t have the appropriate care of my body, I don’t shower.

Until recently, those were days of much suffering. But I perceived that, in the next day of each of these days, in keeping trusting the hope I have, I can have a night of rest. I can wake up and take a shower, and after all start anew, having lived the bad experience the day prior as an experience that, at that moment, I only wanted to go away as soon as possible. But after going through the entirety of it, on its full duration, I would not replace this feeling-and-learning experience by anything else. Someone has said that anguish is what makes us do something. In comfort, we only go, comfortable. The purpose, or the action, comes from the need to change. Every little experience (and not only the great and abnormal) contribute to mould someone in his trajectory.

Bye bye.